i’m back and i have my husband here with me.
technically, HE is back and i now have time to write again.
sunday i did a VERY BAD THING.
i disregarded the doctor’s orders.
it is RVS season, the babies should not be in a small enclosed space surrounded by other children, and what did i do?
took them to a birthday party.
but really, i had to. this party was honoring life.
one day, with their parent’s permission i can hopefully tell you more, but let’s just say that it was really important to me to be at this party, to smile at the parents (couldn’t smile at their twin children who were ecstatically whizzing around the place and being held and adored) catch their eyes and say,
what a miracle your children are.
so, rvs be ding dong double damned, we went. probably not my best parental decision, but now charles knows better to leave me alone with them for 10 days. the babies were not perfect, too much noise and people for them…they did a lot of whinging and carys impressed people with her ability to have tears dripping down her face while half-heartedly and bravely attempting a smile. jasper got lots of "healthy boy" comments as he managed to push jube jubies between his wrist bracelets, and sela was, exactly as you would imagine. tongue poking out, mouth turning down in sadness but never really losing control.
and as for how i am doing on other fronts…good. better. actually spoke with one of the persons who had made one of those IVF equals you have no right to complain comments and they mentioned that i had to be accountable…and i managed to shut it right down. yay for tess!!!
as i become a better person, i become a better mother.
and now this mother and person is off to meet her husband for dinner.
sans kids.
table for two, please!!!
