paranoia
the possibility of avain flu is really scaring me.
when SARS hit, mc, seb and i stayed in hong kong. we didn’t go overboard, but we practised caution and stayed smart. i don’t normally overreact about disease, etc, i am comfortable with the belief that no matter how crazy it seems, God is in control. but for some reason, this bird flu is really pricking at me, and i am uncertain and uneasy. have been ever since tamiflu became impossible to get.
i just feel that if bird flu reaches its full potential, it is going to be devastating, and not only will there be health issues, but there is going to be safety. of course there will be rioting and looting. this certainty frightens me.
it has been a creepy week all around, if the flat is crazy when just one kid is confined to these four walls, what is it going to be like, what am i going to be like, when no one can go outside? we’re going to have to seriously consider converting our living room into a giant playroom.
i hate feeling like this, and the feelings haven’t stopped. yet. it just gets creepier. i wish someone would just tell me i am overreacting, but so far no one has. "you don’t have tamiflu?" is a more frequent comment.
no, we don’t. and i am uneasy, and i hate being this way. and avian flu is so tricky, it dies down, we don’t hear anything for weeks on end, and then it pops up again, slightly mutated again.
am i overreacting? is anyone else slightly freaked out about bird flu?
