one of the best lines from rick warren’s THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE can be paraphrased as such:

90 per cent of what you are worrying about now, will be unimportant this time next year.

the first time i read that i said to myself,

"hmmm, what was i worrying about last year? probably only big things."

but you know, if i think back to what i was worrying about in october 2005, i really cant remember specifics. i am sure the generals were there: good health, sebastian’s hearing tests, and ??

i certainly wasn’t worrying if there would be freshly made custard filled chocolate frosted krispy kreme donuts, which is now a dominant concern in my life every time i take the #22 bus into central.

monday, i will go in to the hospital for a three hour surgery, a three day hospital stay, and a new caesarean, all in the name of removing irritating, ambitious fibroid. yet have i given that much thought? not alot. what have i been thinking about? schooling for my children, sebastian’s party, financing for various endeavors and a relationship. if we are meant to stay in hong kong, and if not…where to go? and there are other things, i forget what they are though.

the book also reminds you that it is a waste of energy to worry about things that you haven’t a hope of changing.

next year, will i remember that i was worrying about the triplets all failing their hearing tests and if they all require grommets how we will tell their earplugs apart? (that was it, i knew i had forgotten something.) does worrying about the hearing fall under the 10 per cent of stuff that it is legit to be concerned about?

i still think the chances are good i will be concerned about the custard krispy kremes. the heart wants what it wants.