sometimes, nothing causes me to do something that needs to be done.
how obscure is that claim? but it is true.
for months, between whinging over doctors prescribing then taking me off thyroid medication, i have been saying i will switch anticonvulsants.
check back to september if you don’t believe me.
i went so far as to get the referral, months ago. but i was told at the time to get used to the thyroid meds first. and then i started the lovely thyroid pills and then was told i don’t need them. love clarity.
and today, for no other reason than i decided to, i called and booked my neurologist appointment. for when? tomorrow of course. to talk about new medications. new medications and me, to be precise.
i am sure there will be a workup, an eeg here, a cat scan there…no worries. i can handle this. old territory.
i wanted to do something for myself today. booking an appointment with a neurologist wasn’t the first thing that popped to mind, but it was the one i went with. i have no idea why. God does though, and that’s good enough for me. call it my cloud as i exit egypt.
i have done something else for myself this week: i quit one of my part time writing jobs. i have enjoyed this job, but chasing the people to interview was taking way too much time. i have promised myself that i will spend the hours i normally devoted to these assignments to writing for myself.
deal!
i feel like such a grownup today. and even better, one who is nice to herself.
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Tess – That’s fantastic. I am so pleased you are setting aside time to write for yourself. That’s so inspiring and motivating. You definitely have to share your words as I dearly love reading them. And as for the Dr’s appointment…you go girl! Being nice to yourself has a wonderful ripple effect that bumps into everyone else within reach. It made its way out here where I finally booked my own routine checkup (overdue of course). XOXO
We’ll now you’ll have time to do something positive for yourself that you find enriching. One door closes and another opens, right?
On the anticonvulsants – I’m on the neurontin (for nerve damage), and I’ve found it to be excellent save for the short term memory issues.
On the anticonvulsants – I’m on the neurontin (for nerve damage), and I’ve found it to be excellent save for the short term memory issues.
But, as you can see, I’m getting much better about it. It seems to be quite temporary/transient, and can be overcome with time and adapting in life. It did make me feel tired at first, but no more. Also, it is now available in generic form here. I find the caplets don’t do as well as the tabs for some reason with me – probably just the way my body processes the time release on the caplets vs. the tabs.
Yay for you to have the opportunities come in to your life now that you’ve “freed” up this bit of time.
xoxo
does this mean you are starting to work on your book more???? I’d buy it in hardback!!! Blessings has you go to the Doc… Iknow you are used to the tests and the whatevers…but you are in my thoughts and prayers… new meds, new whatevers are hard and I love you!! xo lyns
Glad you feel like a grownup. Poor Charles already has a house full of kids, time for one to move up.
Hey Tess, when I grow up I want to be just like you 😉
Auntie P xox
Auntie Pammie,
i’ve often said the same thing myself!
Awesome, Tess! I hope the appt goes well and yay for writing for yourself!
Tessie and Pammie, it isn’t fair to tell your dear old dad that you might not be growing up. That implies you will stay at home to enjoy my peanut butter sandwiches. Nathan is trying to tell me how good they are but is having trouble opening his mouth right now. Love, Dad
I am very pleased to read this Tess darling, I’ve been worried about you.
Love you
xx